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Monday, December 20, 2010
While We Were Sleeping
A Christmas story borrowed from my blog, Captive Thoughts.
I don’t remember another time when I was so unable to sleep. The moon was high overhead and my family was piled in cots and mats around the room, the sound of their snoring the only sound touching my ears that night. Or was it? I slipped from beneath the warm arm of my husband and headed to the window. The night was quiet, the sky full of stars. I looked up into the vast expanse, quite shocked to realize that the brightness flooding the window was not the moon, but a star. I had never seen such a light in the night sky before. Something deep within told me I would never see it again. It seemed to cast its brilliant light right over the heart of Bethlehem.
That’s when I heard what had awakened me. A baby’s cry. I knew the sound well. I hesitated, looking back to check on my own little ones as they slept on, then I pulled my heavy cloak around me, gathered a few supplies from my store, and headed down the road to follow the tiny cry.
As I walked, I tried to imagine what little one would be making an appearance. There were no babies due this month. I would have known, I was the town’s only midwife. I remembered then that there were quite a few visitors due to the Roman taxation. Every house was filled to overflowing. It must be one of those weary travelers giving birth this night. My pace quickened.
The sound led me not to a house but to a cave, cut out of the rock to provide shelter for animals. Surely no baby was entering the world in a cold and dark place such as this. My heart went out to whoever the unfortunate family must be.
But the cave wasn’t so dark. The light from that star above just happened to shine through the doorway, as if Yahweh Himself had ordered such an illumination on just such a place. I pushed my way through the animals, huddled together trying to keep warm, and came upon the little family just beyond the animals, resting in the hay. A tiny babe was lying upon the hay in the manger screaming his little heart out as a frightened father tried to tend to an exhausted mother. My expert eyes quickly noticed that there was too much blood. This woman needed my help.
“I’m a midwife.” I found my voice, hurrying to her and gently pushing the young man out of the way. “Hold the baby close to keep him warm. Wrap him in these.” I handed him some cloths I had grabbed from my supply.
“Grave clothes?”
“They are all I had. But they’ll keep him warm. Wrap him snugly then hold him inside your cloak.”
I turned my attention back to the baby’s mother. She gave me a grateful glance before she succumbed to her fatigue as I began to massage her abdomen to release the afterbirth. I managed the bleeding as best I could with the herbs and preparations I had on hand, offering a prayer that Yahweh might spare her life. When she seemed to be doing better, I reached again for the child, unwrapping him to wash him clean and rub oil and salt on his baby soft skin. He was a bit on the small side; I assumed that they had not been expecting him to come so early. But he seemed healthy with a hearty cry and wide, alert eyes, peering from their darkness to observe me so closely I almost felt that he could see within my heart.
“You’ve a special boy here.” I smiled at the parents, finding myself almost unwilling to hand the child back to his mother to nurse. She was tired, but I assured her that the nursing would hasten her healing. The child quickly began to eat, as if he wished to spare his mother further suffering as a result of his birth.
“He is special.” The father said softly. “He’s the Messiah.”
It wasn’t the first time I’d heard that statement from a proud mama or abba. But the way he spoke it, as if he realized the great weight resting on his shoulders for the responsibility, I almost found myself believing it might be true. I smiled at him.
“I hope you’re right.”
After a few moments of silence, I spoke again. “What will his name be?”
“Jesus.” It was the mother who spoke now. Her husband nodded in agreement.
“Jesus. I have a Jesus myself. Good name. Means ‘savior.’”
“Yes it does.” The man nodded once more.
When I was fairly sure that the mama and baby would make it through the night, I slipped away and left the new family to get to know one another. As I made my way back up the hill to my home, I was struck by the odd way the boy had come into the world. Could a child have a more humble birth? Who would expect a tiny child of a poor family from the north who had been born in a stable, of all things – to be the Messiah that would save his people? Certainly not I.
But the Scriptures said that the one we should look for would come from Bethlehem. There wasn’t a soul that resided here that didn’t know that for a fact.
Maybe Yahweh had sent him quietly into the world, while we were sleeping. Maybe that’s the way He had always intended that he should come.
2:46 am. I was wide awake. In concession, I pulled back the covers and stepped into my slippers, pulling my robe around me as I walked to the window. My spirit was restless. Something was about to happen. I could sense it in the silence.
I lifted the blind and peered out onto the dark street, lit only with porch lights from homes that had remembered to turn them on to detract crime, which seemed to happen more often. My gaze drifted to the sky. The stars shone more brightly than I had ever remembered seeing them in the city. They seemed to twinkle with excitement.
On a whim, I gathered my sleeping children around me and my husband in our bed. I left the shade open and looked out into the night sky, waiting. Hoping. Dreaming that this ordinary December morning might be the day of all days. Faith becoming sight in the form of the one I had loved for a lifetime yet not seen. Yet. The darker the world became, the more I longed for him. The more I looked for him. “Be alert.” Was his admonition. “Watch. I am coming soon!”
So I watched. And just as my eyes began to close again in sleepiness, a sound crashed through the darkness and caused me to sit up straight and look. A shout. A gleeful, excited, powerful and beautiful voice called, the sound so loud and so completely evident that surely there wasn’t a soul on the planet that hadn’t heard it. My husband and children were jolted awake, and I smiled knowingly at my husband.
“It’s time?” he laughed groggily. “Can it be?”
“Jesus!” my oldest child pointed out the window. “I hear trumpets!”
We all ran downstairs and threw open the front door. I followed my family out into the driveway. As we looked up, thousands of shouts and laughter filled the sky as the first glimpse of a somehow familiar face came closer. His beautiful, friendly eyes were smiling as he held out his nail-scarred hands to those that happily waited. My own family was dancing around us in complete elation. I noticed sadly that many houses along our street remained dark. It was as if they could not hear a thing.
A moment later we were sailing through the air at what must have been light speed. And then we were with him. No more pain. No more struggle. Now, there was only Jesus. Only and forever our Savior, who had come while the world was sleeping.
And the morning dawn found them in a fog of disaster and panic. We saw, from afar, nestled safely in the embrace of the Savior, who had rescued us from the immense trouble brewing just on the horizon. He had not forgotten us. We prayed for those loved ones we had left behind, that when Jesus returned for the third time, they would not be found sleeping anymore.
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
10 Best of 2010
First of all - best smile of 2010. Hands down. This is what she does when someone tells her to smile. I love Toddler. Toddler who is quickly becoming Not-so-Toddler. In fact, she seems to be skipping right to Junior Higher.
I know. 2010 still has 16 days left. But since ten years ago MacGyver and I had the brilliant idea of getting married on December 30, we will be attempting to celebrate our tenth anniversary squeezed between Christmas both here and up north, and New Years.
It's going to be a really busy couple of weeks. So don't expect any blog posts.
Last year my sis did a "Best of" post and I enjoyed it. I wished I had thought about it first. I was jealous until I learned that she had simply stolen the idea from someone else.
So as I listen to the joyful sound of my baby screaming at me for no particular reason and trying in vain to make his hands and knees work so he can crawl over here and drool all over me, I shall share my personal favorites that were discovered in 2010. Many of them came straight from you, my awesome readers, and for that I give you many thanks.
Around the House:
1. Homemade Laundry Detergent. I can't begin to describe how much money this has saved us. Works just as well as store bought, at a fraction of the cost. Easy to make. No brainer.
2. Cloth Diapers. Also a money saver to say the least. A little more work than laundry detergent, but worth it in my opinion. You get used to them, and any time you need a break, you just buy a small pack of Luvs.
3. New Balance Shoes. You get to the age when the cheap tennis shoes just don't do the job anymore. I have been very happy with these shoes. They are an "inexpensive for high-end" choice. And worth it.
4. Essential Oils. They can be pricey, but they are SO MUCH FUN.
For your viewing/reading pleasure:
5. Her Mother's Hope/Her Daughter's Dream by Francine Rivers. Wow.
6. "Tangled" Best Disney film since Beauty and the Beast.
7. Fringe I admit, the first two seasons are both necessary to watch and at times a little hard to get into. (Available on DVD or Netflix.)But the end of the second season into the third has been worth it. Disclaimer - not for the squeamish or very conservative. Particularly for those who love subtle but deep character development and plots that require thought. Namely... ME.
8. Master Your Metabolism by Gillian Michaels. I don't think I'll see the full benefit of this book until after I stop nursing, but cutting out processed food has significantly reduced the number of headaches and migraines I get.
Lessons learned or being learned:
9. It's Still a Broken World. I started this blog with the somewhat idealistic thought that I could find that secret path that ultimately leads to a happy, peaceful life. After 6+ months, it's easy to see that although making some of these changes has made my life better, this is still a broken world that needs more than we could ever come up with to fix it. No matter how hard I try to make my path easy, there is always something else that blocks the way.
10. Homeschooling + 4 children + trying to become a better writer + everything else = No time. I have had to accept that I will not have the time to sit and stare into space or daydream for quite a few years yet. But I have decided that I cannot use this busy time of life as an excuse to not do the best I can in every area.
Okay, your turn! Leave your 10 Best of 2010 as a comment or provide a link to your blogged answers!
Merry Christmas, Happy New Year!
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
Holiday Ideas
This may not be in the spirit of education, but we pushed through, doing 3 lessons a day for quite awhile and now we find ourselves with a nice long Christmas break.
Aaaahhhhh.
So I've managed to fill up the time making Christmas gifts. I spent every last cent of the Christmas budget so now I am feverishly trying to make nice presents. This isn't new, I try this every year, but this year I think I'm getting the hang of it. Sort of?
I'm always very critical of my homemade gifts. I watch people open them and wonder if they are thinking "Why in the world do I want this?" and when I leave it promptly finds it's way to the trash.
Oh well. At least I tried if that happens.
I thought I'd share a few of my ideas if you have also run out of money and still need a few gifts.
1. Almond Bark
This is embarrassingly easy, but it tastes like you spent all day making it. Get a bag of chocolate chips. I like Giardelli 60% cocoa, but you can use anything including white chocolate chips. Melt them in a double boiler (I just put my smaller pot in my larger one with water in the bottom of the larger one. As soon as they are melted, pour in a bunch of almonds. It doesn't really matter how much you put in. If you only use a few it will be more chocolately, if you dump in the whole bag it will be very almond-y. Either way it will be GOOD.
I should add that you're going to want your parchment paper covered baking sheet ready before you start. I usually don't, but at this point I always wish I did.
Pour out the chocolate and almond mixture (after you have stirred it) onto the parchment paper an smooth it out evenly and thinly. (If you want to at this point you can crush a candy cane and sprinkle it on top) Stick it in the fridge for a couple hours and Whoallah - you have almond bark.
Is that how you spell "Whoalah?" I confess I've never used that word before in my life. I'll bet spell checker is going to LOVE it.
2. Hot cocoa mix
I went online and googled (Actually, I "yahooed" it, but that doesn't sound as cool) "best hot cocoa mix." I came up with this one, which I didn't really feel was the best hot cocoa mix until I added more cocoa and sugar and cut down on the creamer. It was pretty much milk with a faint cocoa taste before that. I also added to this recipe a little bit of instant coffee and a big dash of cinnamon.
Here's the link: http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Hot-Cocoa-Mix/Detail.aspx
3. Chocolate Chip cookies
I know that isn't a picture of the actual cookies. I didn't take one and I'm too lazy to do it now. Suffice it to say they look just like the picture on the link.
This is the best recipe I've found for Chocolate chip cookies. People will usually comment on how good they are, and I think that's because of the secret ingredient - vanilla instant pudding mix. They never turn out flat. I hate flat chocolate chip cookies.
Another secret I found after many many years of overcooking baked good because I was afraid the salmonella wouldn't get cooked out - take them out as soon as you see the tiniest hint of golden brown. They taste MUCH better this way.
Link. http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Award-Winning-Soft-Chocolate-Chip-Cookies/Detail.aspx
So enjoy making your own yummy yet inexpensive gifts, or scoff at my ideas because yours are WAY better. Then share them.
And spell check's verdict is that I should have spelled it "Wallah."
Aaaahhhhh.
So I've managed to fill up the time making Christmas gifts. I spent every last cent of the Christmas budget so now I am feverishly trying to make nice presents. This isn't new, I try this every year, but this year I think I'm getting the hang of it. Sort of?
I'm always very critical of my homemade gifts. I watch people open them and wonder if they are thinking "Why in the world do I want this?" and when I leave it promptly finds it's way to the trash.
Oh well. At least I tried if that happens.
I thought I'd share a few of my ideas if you have also run out of money and still need a few gifts.
1. Almond Bark
This is embarrassingly easy, but it tastes like you spent all day making it. Get a bag of chocolate chips. I like Giardelli 60% cocoa, but you can use anything including white chocolate chips. Melt them in a double boiler (I just put my smaller pot in my larger one with water in the bottom of the larger one. As soon as they are melted, pour in a bunch of almonds. It doesn't really matter how much you put in. If you only use a few it will be more chocolately, if you dump in the whole bag it will be very almond-y. Either way it will be GOOD.
I should add that you're going to want your parchment paper covered baking sheet ready before you start. I usually don't, but at this point I always wish I did.
Pour out the chocolate and almond mixture (after you have stirred it) onto the parchment paper an smooth it out evenly and thinly. (If you want to at this point you can crush a candy cane and sprinkle it on top) Stick it in the fridge for a couple hours and Whoallah - you have almond bark.
Is that how you spell "Whoalah?" I confess I've never used that word before in my life. I'll bet spell checker is going to LOVE it.
2. Hot cocoa mix
I went online and googled (Actually, I "yahooed" it, but that doesn't sound as cool) "best hot cocoa mix." I came up with this one, which I didn't really feel was the best hot cocoa mix until I added more cocoa and sugar and cut down on the creamer. It was pretty much milk with a faint cocoa taste before that. I also added to this recipe a little bit of instant coffee and a big dash of cinnamon.
Here's the link: http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Hot-Cocoa-Mix/Detail.aspx
3. Chocolate Chip cookies
I know that isn't a picture of the actual cookies. I didn't take one and I'm too lazy to do it now. Suffice it to say they look just like the picture on the link.
This is the best recipe I've found for Chocolate chip cookies. People will usually comment on how good they are, and I think that's because of the secret ingredient - vanilla instant pudding mix. They never turn out flat. I hate flat chocolate chip cookies.
Another secret I found after many many years of overcooking baked good because I was afraid the salmonella wouldn't get cooked out - take them out as soon as you see the tiniest hint of golden brown. They taste MUCH better this way.
Link. http://allrecipes.com/Recipe/Award-Winning-Soft-Chocolate-Chip-Cookies/Detail.aspx
So enjoy making your own yummy yet inexpensive gifts, or scoff at my ideas because yours are WAY better. Then share them.
And spell check's verdict is that I should have spelled it "Wallah."
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Expect Grace
Little boy lying in the hay
You've become my whole world today
I'm overwhelmed
Frightened... amazed... I don't know what to say...
I didn't see this coming
I don't know what to do
I'm lost in trepidation
The thought of loving you...
Grace for today, grace for this moment
My gift from his heart, to trust what is God-sent
Every day I am given, his mercies are new
Each moment I draw breath, his promise proves true.
A purpose so much higher than me,
A promise we've waited ages to see
I'm overwhelmed...
I never would have thought -
Never could have imagined -
I don't know why
You chose me.
Grace for today, grace for this moment.
My gift from his heart, to trust what is God-sent
Every day I am given, his mercies are new
Each moment I draw breath, his promise proves true.
Little boy lying in the hay
You've become my whole world today.
For those of you that will be at church on Sunday morning, if the great snowstorm of 2010 doesn't hit first, I have an explanation.
I will try to explain Sunday before I sing this song, but standing on a platform I am feeble and weak-tongued and all so I will probably not make a whole lot of sense. Which is why I want to pour out all my thoughts so at least the two or three people that read this will understand what I'm saying.
Or four.
As long as I can remember, I have always felt a connection to Mary. When I read about her, I can see her. I can hear her thoughts.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying that she was divine. I'm not saying she was perfect. Nor am I saying that I possess the goodness and faith she must have had to be the chosen mother of the Messiah. I'm just saying... I get her.
The Bible says that Mary "pondered all these things in her heart." She stored up every angelic visitation, every prophetic utterance that suddenly came to life in front of her eyes - within her own body even, and thought about it long and hard. I'm a ponderer as well. I take it all in, I process it, I roll it around in my brain over and over until I have taken all the sense I can from a thought before I set it on a shelf in case I have need of it again.
If this sounds insane and you want to recommend I see a psychiatrist... well that's why I don't typically share these things. Or maybe I do.
Mary had to know. She had to have had a clue to the future events, especially when crazy kings started trying to kill her baby boy and they had to escape to Egypt for safety. She knew that baby was destined for big things. Painful things. Excruciating events for a mother's heart to endure. She heard the warning. A sword would pierce her own side. Just as I felt my daughter's pain recently when someone she thought was her friend was cruel, just as I matched every tear she cried with my own, Mary would feel every lash of the whip, every thorn that tore her son's flesh, every ignorant, mocking voice from the crowd of people that had joined their voices with their ancestors through the ages and pleaded for a Savior.
So how did Mary cope, staring at that helpless, soft and warm little creature, all the while with hormones running rampant through her body, knowing that someday he would allow himself to be led to the altar of sacrifice and slaughtered like an innocent, silent lamb?
I suppose she had to handle the weight of that knowledge, every moment of terrible foreshadowing with the same God-given grace that we who know him live every day, every moment counting on. The Bible says that God will give us peace, peace that surpasses all human understanding and explanation. He promises this peace will come only in those moments we require it. In other words, he'll be there to hold us up in every moment he allows that could crush us without his help.
What he doesn't give us the grace for is worry. When we borrow trouble from tomorrow, when we play the "what ifs" over and over in our mind and start to tremble and buckle under the burden, God cannot give us grace to do what he warned us against. He won't enable our sin.
So Mary had to take one day, one moment at a time. She had to accept his grace, his peace, his mercy for the things he allowed, and trust that he would see her through the dark days ahead.
And so, if the little boy lying in the hay has become your whole world, as he has mine, expect resistance. Expect pain, ridicule, misunderstanding, and struggle.
But even more, expect grace.
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Challenge #2
I'm sitting here watching the second to last Biggest Loser for this season with my own sweat on my brow. I think I'm ready for a new week of challenge.
Who will join me? An hour a day for six days out of seven? I think six is a more sustainable weekly challenge. I've found that one day of rest out of seven gives you perspective, gives you something to look foward to, and generally makes an endeavor realistic.
I'm doing the eliptical an hour a day, but I'm going to try to add a few minutes of weight training as well.
We do need to talk food. How about January 2 we will do a food challenge? And until then we'll just agree to do the best we can with all this holiday food surrounding us?
Let me know you're with me.
Who will join me? An hour a day for six days out of seven? I think six is a more sustainable weekly challenge. I've found that one day of rest out of seven gives you perspective, gives you something to look foward to, and generally makes an endeavor realistic.
I'm doing the eliptical an hour a day, but I'm going to try to add a few minutes of weight training as well.
We do need to talk food. How about January 2 we will do a food challenge? And until then we'll just agree to do the best we can with all this holiday food surrounding us?
Let me know you're with me.
More Ideas
I thought of a couple more ideas for you with the essential oils. I'll quickly tell you because I hear a screaming baby and little toddler feet padding around upstairs and I know my free moment has reached a conclusion.
I had been buying these packages of little bags full of dried lavender at Trader Joe's that you put in the dryer to make your clothes smell nice. Problem was, they were expensive, and when Toddler got a hold of them they were quite messy. So I got an old rag and put about 20 drops of each - Lavender, Rosemary, Tea Tree and Peppermint (or more or less to your tastes) and threw that in the dryer with the clothes. Works great! The peppermint especially adds a nice fragrance.
Liquid castile soap with lavender and tea trea drops also make a nice fragrance in a pump in the bathroom. Or a bit of castile soap with a couple drops of lavender and tea tree in about a cup of water over squares of white flannel make a great substitution for wipes. (I may have said that one before.) (Sorry.)
Back to Life.
I had been buying these packages of little bags full of dried lavender at Trader Joe's that you put in the dryer to make your clothes smell nice. Problem was, they were expensive, and when Toddler got a hold of them they were quite messy. So I got an old rag and put about 20 drops of each - Lavender, Rosemary, Tea Tree and Peppermint (or more or less to your tastes) and threw that in the dryer with the clothes. Works great! The peppermint especially adds a nice fragrance.
Liquid castile soap with lavender and tea trea drops also make a nice fragrance in a pump in the bathroom. Or a bit of castile soap with a couple drops of lavender and tea tree in about a cup of water over squares of white flannel make a great substitution for wipes. (I may have said that one before.) (Sorry.)
Back to Life.
Monday, December 6, 2010
Tis the Season
I had a successful 7 day fitness challenge. It sounds like the rest of the takers did as well. It felt good to realize the possibilities and not let excuses reign my activities.
But now the 7 days are over and excuses have taken over again. I'm thinking that I'm going to need to start another 7 day challenge.
Tomorrow.
Part of the reason I'm making excuses is because I've been busy Christmas shopping and making gifts. Does it make anyone else nervous to spend money around the holidays? We save up all year for Christmas, but sometimes I feel a little out of control as I spend (every last dime) of that saved money. And I always say "We're going to have a lighter Christmas this year" or "Let's focus on getting a few things we really want instead of 700 little things that are just going to get in the way" but somehow we still end up with a mix of both.
Oh well. Maybe next year I'll figure out the secret. Or I'll have more self control.
I remind myself that God was extravagant when he gave his gift, so I guess as long as I'm not breaking the bank I can be a little extravagant as well. I hope that's just not blaming my lack of discipline on God. Because that won't work.
Anyway, the reason I have a picture of my lovely essential oils is so I can tell you about some of the recipes I've made that I really love. I've given you a couple already, and I didn't have too much response, so maybe I'm alone in my love for scents, but I'll give you a couple more ideas. Remember, if you don't have oils and want to try a few scents, I can bring you cotton balls in a ziploc with your scents. They are so much fun to mix with unscented lotion or soap, to drop on a diffuser and fill the room with good smells, or to mix with baking soda or vinegar to make cleaners.
I don't think I shared my carpet freshener recipe with you. I love it - it leaves a wonderful scent in the room or in the furniture for a couple days. If you would like a small sample let me know.
Another great trick I found was to put a mix of scents on cotton balls in open ziploc bags and set them in closets. It really helps to keep things smelling nice. Our front closet smelled like feet until I did this - and now we can hang our coats in there again and not have to wear them along with the "Ode to Foot" smell.
So a few ideas for you. Let me know what you want to try.
Sunday, November 28, 2010
7 Day Fitness Challenge
I'm inspired. Maybe it's that blah feeling you get after holiday food. I didn't even eat that much and I still feel it. Maybe it's those family pictures that turned out really well but revealed more than I wanted to know about my present state. Maybe it's inspiring people like Amy M. who have been hopping on the treadmill late at night and are getting so skinny one barely recognizes them.
Anyway, I'm giving it a week. I'm going to exercise at least an hour a day for the next seven days. I'm going to do it after the kids go to bed. I'm going to fly in the face of all the excuses, however valid, and just do it.
Anyone with me?
Anyway, I'm giving it a week. I'm going to exercise at least an hour a day for the next seven days. I'm going to do it after the kids go to bed. I'm going to fly in the face of all the excuses, however valid, and just do it.
Anyone with me?
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Murky Milk Musings
With six people in the house there's the tendency to always have some sort of drama.
There was lots of drama today. No one warned me that pms starts at the age of 7. And you know that sensitive guy that everyone hopes to marry? I did. His children are every bit as "sensitive." (Sorry, MacGyver. You know it's true.) The main trouble is that "sensitive" in a child translates into a lot of hitting, pulling hair, yelling, dissolving into tears, kicking, and screaming "I hate you" to the very siblings that they prayed fervently would come to be.
And when I was a child, I straightened up pretty fast when I got in trouble. At least I think I did. I didn't want a repeat. My children seem to revel in punishment. They can barely set foot out of timeout or finally have a privilege returned or receive any other form of punishment and a minute later they are pulling the same act that got them there in the first place.
Strong willed in a husband means a safe home, provision and comfort, relief that he will take care of the hard things and the big things. Strong willed passed on to 4 small children means.... either a whole lot of fun or a whole lot of drama.
I hate drama.
Anyway, this has nothing to do with what I was going to say in the first place, so it's time to get back on topic. All this was just to say that something's always going on in the house. Baby J has taken center stage in my mind in recent days.
Before I reveal my dilemma, I have to make a confession. Until a few days ago, I secretly looked down on moms that were sure their nursing babies had a milk allergy. I was one of the ones that rolled my eyes and whispered to other look-downers that it was all in their head and they were going to all that trouble for nothing. That even if the baby had a sensitivity to something the best way for them to "get over it" was to expose them to it.
That was before. Before that first little weird rash on his face a couple months ago. Before my happy, friendly baby got such a sad look on his face. Before hearing from the nurse that he'd only gained 3 ounces in two months. Before changing 4 dirty, weird looking, awful smelling diapers a day.(CLOTH diapers. I've been rinsing. A lot.) Before wiping my precious baby and seeing blood from all the sores on his bottom.
I'm supposed to take care of that bottom.
So I did my homework and to my great surprise the symptoms added up to an allergy. Which allergy was, and still is the question. I started with the most common. I stopped eating any dairy whatsoever and made sure everything that went into his mouth was also non-dairy. It's been a hard week. I love cheese. I miss cheese. The results haven't been incredibly clear. He seems happier, his bottom has healed, his face is a little less rashy, but we're still doing 3 dirty diapers a day. I'm going to throw all caution to the wind and eat Thanksgiving dinner the way it was intended to be eaten, in all of it's buttery, whipped cream glory, and see if there is any change. If not, I guess it will be time to haul the entourage back to the doctor. Hey, we made it a couple weeks without going for someone, I guess.
So that's the topic of the day. Strike a chord? Want to tell me off for my uncharitable thoughts? Tell me I deserve it? I know I do. Go ahead and say it if it makes you feel better. If anyone has advice or thinks I'm doing something wrong, that would be quite welcome also.
Good night!
Monday, November 22, 2010
A Few Rules
Okay. I'm a pretty nice person. I always give people the benefit of the doubt. But I have to say I'm done answering any inflammatory posts. I have never claimed to have any supreme knowledge about anything, and I am writing from the viewpoint that the Bible is the true and inspired word of God. If you do not agree, you are welcome to your opinion. But I will no longer argue about it.
This is not to say that it is wrong to question and to seek answers for those questions. There are other blogs, other sources that will gladly take these things on, if the questions are serious, and I encourage those with questions I cannot answer to find someone who has the time and energy to discuss these things.
Resources I would recommend include
http://www.rzim.org/ (Ravi Zacharias, apologetist)
http://leestrobel.com/ (Ex-Atheist)
If you are a reader and you like deep, C.S. Lewis is an excellent choice.
As for my blog - sincere questions to which we can find the answers together are as always welcomed and appreciated, even if you disagree with the conclusions I've drawn. But it must be with the understanding that the Bible is the source for finding those answers.
Any comments that discuss inappropriate topics to this blog(to be determined by the blogger) will be immediately deleted.
Thank you for reading, as always, the musings of a really really busy and really really tired wife and mom.
This is not to say that it is wrong to question and to seek answers for those questions. There are other blogs, other sources that will gladly take these things on, if the questions are serious, and I encourage those with questions I cannot answer to find someone who has the time and energy to discuss these things.
Resources I would recommend include
http://www.rzim.org/ (Ravi Zacharias, apologetist)
http://leestrobel.com/ (Ex-Atheist)
If you are a reader and you like deep, C.S. Lewis is an excellent choice.
As for my blog - sincere questions to which we can find the answers together are as always welcomed and appreciated, even if you disagree with the conclusions I've drawn. But it must be with the understanding that the Bible is the source for finding those answers.
Any comments that discuss inappropriate topics to this blog(to be determined by the blogger) will be immediately deleted.
Thank you for reading, as always, the musings of a really really busy and really really tired wife and mom.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Revelations, Perfections, and Ironies
The stars have aligned, and a few hours of time have been granted to me. I finished my 600 page Francine Rivers novel. (Her newest - a two book series. Read it.) I only have a moderately large pile of laundry on the basement floor, and have actually put away all of the clean clothes. It's Sunday afternoon, and since I actually spent more than 8 hours last night actually sleeping - I don't feel the need to sleep away the afternoon as is my custom of late.
The result? A thought out blog entry of sufficient depth that a great discussion is anticipated.
We're studying Revelation in church. Maybe it's my imagination, but I feel like our worship has been upgraded to the next level ever since we began. Today our choir, although we were still struggling with it this past Wednesday, pulled off the Hallelujah chorus. And it reminded me, our highest praise during this life will not compare with the worship we'll be about for eternity if we know Christ.
Which led me to my next pondering. Heaven. We discussed life after death this morning in Sunday School.
Because I know you tricky blog readers, I will begin with the facts. The Bible says much about Heaven, but the basics are this - Heaven is where God is, eternity will be spent on a brand new and perfect version of earth, and the followers of Jesus will spend eternity in brand new and perfect bodies. See 1 Thessalonians 4, Hebrews 8, Hebrews 11:16, 2 Peter 3, and parts of Revelation.
Some of us might be tempted to let the descriptions of heaven go in one ear and out the other, especially if we've been taught them since we were children. But have you ever truly just pondered the amazing future in store for us that know him?
Now we jump into my speculations and wanderings. I think God knew what he was doing when he didn't give us too much detail about our forever home. Even with the limited facts he's given us, we tend to picture heaven as a blah-fest. Standing around in white robes in a huge white room and chanting like cloistered monks while God sits on his throne and looks harsh.
Or was I the only one that got that impression from the way I heard people speak of it? That could be.
But when you force yourself to look past the vague description and the traditional versions of the truth, you realize that heaven is the perfect version of that vision and infinity times more. Now, as far as I know, it is an accepted fact that we use precious little of the brains we've been given. Have you ever wondered why? My theory, based on my own fallible logic, is that the parts we don't have access to are going to be activated when we get into eternity. We're going to be completely human, completely amazing inventions of God that are capable of everything that even the wisest, most intelligent person who ever lived couldn't even imagine.
Let's bring it home. What's your strength? What's the thing that drives you, the thing that makes you get up in the morning, the thing that delights and inspires and motivates you to live to a higher version of yourself? I'll give you my example, so you can think about what yours is, because it's tempting to say that there are too many to choose one. (At first thought, I might say, well, I love to write. I love music. I love to sing. I love to be a mom. I love to teach my kids.) But if I'm really going to boil me down to one core trait, I'd have to say that the one thing that makes me who I am and upon which all my other loves rests is simply my imagination.
Now, my imagination has also gotten me in trouble on plenty of occasions. There were the things I totally missed out on because I was daydreaming, there are the very real fears I had as a child because of the things I could imagine. Especially in the dark, old, creaky and possibly haunted church next door where my completely unimaginative mother made me go and practice piano by myself and probably scared 10 or 15 years off my life at the same time...
My sisters know what I'm talking about.
But all in all, my imagination fuels my deepest loves and my highest goals. And it's my suspicion that it will be my imagination that will drive me through eternity. I believe that when this temporary life is over, I will still be creating music, creating art, creating something that will be my eternal act of worship to my Creator.
I have other theories about eternity. I think we'll have "superpowers." I think we'll still be in the process, always, of learning new things, only we will not be hindered by laziness, weakness, short attention spans... you name it. Life will still be exciting, amazing, rewarding, and delightful. In fact, we probably haven't experienced the tiniest speck of what those words mean as of this moment. I think the irony of all that we try to come up with is that God is so big, so immense, so timeless and powerful and wise that it's going to to take forever to figure him out.
And we'll revel in every moment spent in the endeavor.
So what is your strength? I want to hear some of your boiled down and generalized descriptions of the driving forces that motivate you. There's no wrong answer. We've all been given special gifts by our Creator. The trick is finding them and putting them in the right spot in the puzzle of time and space that God is creating.
And if I'm really going to be honest, though this blog is based on the idea that we can make this life better by growing and learning, and I'm a believer in changed lives... we're trying to do things that aren't going to work until this imperfect, broken world is replaced by the new model. So I guess I can relax a little, even if I don't write every day and even if no one agrees with what I say or even cares or reads. Because my eternal blog will be AWESOME.
Let me know what you think your "driving motivation" looks like. One word descriptions are fine, for those of you who are thinking you won't reply just because you can't think of the right way to explain it.
And if this sparks any other thoughts about heaven you might have, let's have it.
(Oh, and if you aren't sure your ticket for heaven is sealed, and you can't believe I am so sure mine is, please know that your fare was already paid by Jesus, and all that is required of you is to admit you can't pay for it yourself and reach out and take it from him. End of story. If you doubt me, say so, and I'll come up with some verses to prove it.)
Friday, November 12, 2010
Hair Part Two
Okay, I had questions. And I will endeavor to answer them to the best of my ability. Not that it is any great ability.
The question was about what I meant by last instruction about using the curling iron. I knew it wasn't clear when I wrote it, but I was too lazy to think of a way to put it into words.
Not that I came up with something brilliant. I just took my camera up to my curling iron and snapped a few pictures. Here they are. Hopefully it will cause the light to come on for those of you who were confused and frustrated by my last post.
(Disregard my funny faces. It's hard to curl your hair and take pictures at the same time, let alone smile pretty.)
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At this point, you have your basic curl. Now run your fingers through it and shake it up a bit.
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Now to discuss another little problem that busy moms tend to have when they don't wash their hair every day. (Those of you that have never considered this and find this disgusting, just keep in mind that it is actually HEALTHIER for your hair NOT to wash it every day or even every other day. The oils that are secreted that you wash off every time you wash your hair are protectants. Over-washing leads to dry hair. At least this is what I read. Or heard. Or both.)
I was discussing this with my hair stylist again this week at church and she suggested that anyone with light colored hair can erase the signs of oils at the roots with a little bit of baby powder. I'm excited to try this. For now - this is my solution:
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So there you have it. We've about exhausted my knowledge of hair care. Add your own tips if you have them! (Or let me know if this is still not clear at all!)
The question was about what I meant by last instruction about using the curling iron. I knew it wasn't clear when I wrote it, but I was too lazy to think of a way to put it into words.
Not that I came up with something brilliant. I just took my camera up to my curling iron and snapped a few pictures. Here they are. Hopefully it will cause the light to come on for those of you who were confused and frustrated by my last post.
(Disregard my funny faces. It's hard to curl your hair and take pictures at the same time, let alone smile pretty.)
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At this point, you have your basic curl. Now run your fingers through it and shake it up a bit.
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Now to discuss another little problem that busy moms tend to have when they don't wash their hair every day. (Those of you that have never considered this and find this disgusting, just keep in mind that it is actually HEALTHIER for your hair NOT to wash it every day or even every other day. The oils that are secreted that you wash off every time you wash your hair are protectants. Over-washing leads to dry hair. At least this is what I read. Or heard. Or both.)
I was discussing this with my hair stylist again this week at church and she suggested that anyone with light colored hair can erase the signs of oils at the roots with a little bit of baby powder. I'm excited to try this. For now - this is my solution:
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So there you have it. We've about exhausted my knowledge of hair care. Add your own tips if you have them! (Or let me know if this is still not clear at all!)
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Hairy Blogging
Apologies. I'm sorry I haven't blogged. You know what stands in my way, I won't go on about it.
Confessions. For the same reason - I have only been on the elliptical once in about two weeks. I haven't had time. Fortunately, I haven't had time to eat either.
I'm coming along with my list of essential oil recipes. My plan is to offer samples of any that you are interested in trying so you can know which oils you would like to invest in.
Today I'd like to discuss hair. If you are male you probably aren't going to have any interest in anything I come up with today. I'm sorry for wasting your time.
I've always liked long curly hair. This may have something to do with the straight, boy-short hair that my mom felt was necessary when I was six years old. I deal with the trauma by letting my hair grow and curling it. Sorry, Mom. You did great in every other way.
Anyway, so recently while discussing this love of long curly hair but lack of time with my wonderful hair stylist, Shannon, she showed me how to curl and told me what kind of curling iron to buy. I found an amazing iron. It's a little pricey but worth every penny and more. It has 5 different heat settings and heats instantly. Here's a link to check it out.
http://infiniti.conair.com/catalog.php?pcID=49&products_id=174
So the actual curling takes a little practice but with this iron it only takes me 5-10 minutes to do ALL of my hair. And I have A LOT of hair. Several things to keep in mind:
1. Start a couple inches down, but curl from the top down.
2. Curl backward, not toward your face.
3. Do as large of a section as possible.
4. Try to curl the entire section of hair with one pass from the curling iron. I can't think of a better way to word this but it's very important.
If you are asking "Why are you telling me this?" then I'm again - sorry for wasting your time. It took me a long time to figure this out and it's so easy that I can do this on a regular basis now and be really happy with the results. I'm also telling you this so you can look up at me in the choir or passing you in the hall and not think to yourself "She keeps saying she has no time - how in the world does she have time to do that to her hair?"
I know you thought it. Some of you said it. That's okay, I would think the same thing.
So this is my tip for today. I suppose I should get back to putting this house together for the fourth or fifth time today. And Sunday's the easy day.
Let me know what you're thinking.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Deep Breath
Okay, debate time. Who saw the film of the woman in the 1920's walking down the street... talking on a cell phone??
It gives me the creeps. Not one for the most obvious answers - I'm going with time traveling on this one. My sis has it all worked out - it was Charlie Chaplin's crazy mother talking to herself. What's your take? Leave a response and let me know. Meanwhile, enjoy my precious little toddler getting into the spirit of halloween.
You know I've been really hitting the books when it comes to herbs, supplements and such. I've taken it a step further and have been taking a good look at aromatherapy. I believe I'm hooked. I've got cleaning recipes, perfume recipes, massage oil recipes and room spray recipes, just to name a few. I already had a few essential oils on hand, but I've ordered quite a few more. I'll be making all of these recipes and trying them out, and let you know what I thought of them.
Here's one to get you started. I've been using vinegar and water for cleaning, but I found a recipe that steps up the disinfectant power and gives a nicer scent as well. It works really well as a cleaner.
Essential Cleaner:
2 cups vinegar
2 cups water
1/2 cup rubbing alcohol
25 drops lemon essential oil
20 drops rosemary essential oil
15 drops peppermint essential oil
or I tried tea tree and lavender instead of lemon and rosemary and they worked well too.
The only thing to keep in mind with this one is that if you are switching from vinegar water is no longer okay to let your toddler spray it multiple times into her mouth.
Enjoy! And let me know what you think about crazy time traveling woman. My sis is still eagerly trying to paint a scenario that rests safely in the non-paranormal. How boring is that?
Sunday, October 24, 2010
OFF # 7 My Soul to Keep
Now I lay me down to sleep. I pray the Lord my soul to keep. Keep me safe all through the night and wake me with the morning light. Amen.
The mother pressed a kiss against the soft cheek and turned out the light, leaving the room with one final glance at her drowsy toddler.
As the little one softly breathed in and out, in and out, succumbing to the need for rest, a restless stirring began in the deepest, darkest corner of the room.
Before long it emerged, ugly and dark, crouching along the floor toward the bed with nothing but sinister intent. Evil oozed from every depraved pore, leaving a sticky wake of destruction.
It reached the bed, already exulting in the pure malevolence of taking this innocent life before it reached it’s scaly hands to grab the child by the throat.
Light prevented it. The monster cried out in protest as the aura of illumination grabbed its hands and pulled it back with effortless control.
“You can’t stop me!” the monster wheezed with a triumphant laugh. “You aren’t any more powerful than I. You and me? We’re the same. You won’t stop me.”
The man made of light did not speak. Evil cursed and threw the holy warrior against the wall.
They wrestled for quite some time until suddenly there were footsteps in the hall. A mother peaked back into the room, her face unsettled. She stared around the dark space, seeing nothing, but sensing everything. Quickly she fell on her knees next to the bed, and began to pray.
Evil shrunk back, knowing its power was being sucked away with each effective word the woman spoke to the Creator. It sighed, knowing that now the angelic being of goodness was the least of its problems.
There He was again. Always showing up just when those disgusting little humans started talking that way. Never once did He neglect a sincere appeal from a member of His family. Never once had Evil gotten anywhere once his presence was in the room. In the house. In the neighborhood.
And so Evil slunk back, and shuffled away into nothingness.
The angel smiled, and went back to his post at the end of the child’s bed.
And He went to her. Knelt beside her. Comforted her. Gave her peace.
“It’s safe now. I’m here.”
With a smile, she kissed her little one once more and stood to leave.
“Thank you.” She whispered into the darkness.
And He smiled.
The mother pressed a kiss against the soft cheek and turned out the light, leaving the room with one final glance at her drowsy toddler.
As the little one softly breathed in and out, in and out, succumbing to the need for rest, a restless stirring began in the deepest, darkest corner of the room.
Before long it emerged, ugly and dark, crouching along the floor toward the bed with nothing but sinister intent. Evil oozed from every depraved pore, leaving a sticky wake of destruction.
It reached the bed, already exulting in the pure malevolence of taking this innocent life before it reached it’s scaly hands to grab the child by the throat.
Light prevented it. The monster cried out in protest as the aura of illumination grabbed its hands and pulled it back with effortless control.
“You can’t stop me!” the monster wheezed with a triumphant laugh. “You aren’t any more powerful than I. You and me? We’re the same. You won’t stop me.”
The man made of light did not speak. Evil cursed and threw the holy warrior against the wall.
They wrestled for quite some time until suddenly there were footsteps in the hall. A mother peaked back into the room, her face unsettled. She stared around the dark space, seeing nothing, but sensing everything. Quickly she fell on her knees next to the bed, and began to pray.
Evil shrunk back, knowing its power was being sucked away with each effective word the woman spoke to the Creator. It sighed, knowing that now the angelic being of goodness was the least of its problems.
There He was again. Always showing up just when those disgusting little humans started talking that way. Never once did He neglect a sincere appeal from a member of His family. Never once had Evil gotten anywhere once his presence was in the room. In the house. In the neighborhood.
And so Evil slunk back, and shuffled away into nothingness.
The angel smiled, and went back to his post at the end of the child’s bed.
And He went to her. Knelt beside her. Comforted her. Gave her peace.
“It’s safe now. I’m here.”
With a smile, she kissed her little one once more and stood to leave.
“Thank you.” She whispered into the darkness.
And He smiled.
Saturday, October 23, 2010
OFF #6 - The Fun House Mirror
Tall. Short. Wide. Thin.
She turned, her mind’s eye critically sweeping over the reflection. A wall of mirrors, and none to tell her what the true representation might be.
“That one looks most like you.” Someone pointed at a peculiar looking mirror of waves. She saw her distorted face peer skeptically at the glass.
“No, it’s this one. Come here!” The scoff came from the other side of the odd, dark room. A room of wrong dimensions, of optical illusions. Nothing was real.
And everything was real.
She closed her eyes, unwilling to stare another moment at the images that mocked her from every angle. She didn’t want to know she was that ugly. She didn’t want to see the plain features ridiculed by the proportions of this nether world.
“If only there were a truth.” She closed her eyes tightly, swallowing back the lump of hopeless grief in her throat.
“There is.”
She didn’t dare open her eyes, because the masculine voice was beauty in audible form. The tone he carried was perfection, and now the hand on her shoulder was love defined by touch.
“Open your eyes.”
She shook her head stubbornly, capturing her torso with her arms in a gesture of refusal. Even as she did, she mourned the loss she would experience when she could no longer feel his essence close to her.
“I’m not going anywhere.” He answered her silent lament. “And I want you to open your eyes and look at the truth.”
She felt hot tears. “No! I’ve seen it! It’s ugly! It’s not worth looking at! Why should I trust you when I’ve seen the truth for myself?”
“You haven’t.” There was a smile in his words. She wanted to see that smile. More than anything she’d ever wanted. But she couldn’t.
“You haven’t seen the truth. And you should trust me because I love you. As you are. As you look in the mirror I will show you.”
It took several moments for his words to reach her heart and melt her unwillingness. But eventually she allowed her eyes to open slightly. She could see a mirror. And a woman in a beautiful white dress. A beautiful woman.
But it wasn’t the woman that made her open her eyes wide in wonder. Not even when she became orientated enough to realize that the woman was none but herself.
She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. She never wanted to, ever again.
Here was truth.
She turned, her mind’s eye critically sweeping over the reflection. A wall of mirrors, and none to tell her what the true representation might be.
“That one looks most like you.” Someone pointed at a peculiar looking mirror of waves. She saw her distorted face peer skeptically at the glass.
“No, it’s this one. Come here!” The scoff came from the other side of the odd, dark room. A room of wrong dimensions, of optical illusions. Nothing was real.
And everything was real.
She closed her eyes, unwilling to stare another moment at the images that mocked her from every angle. She didn’t want to know she was that ugly. She didn’t want to see the plain features ridiculed by the proportions of this nether world.
“If only there were a truth.” She closed her eyes tightly, swallowing back the lump of hopeless grief in her throat.
“There is.”
She didn’t dare open her eyes, because the masculine voice was beauty in audible form. The tone he carried was perfection, and now the hand on her shoulder was love defined by touch.
“Open your eyes.”
She shook her head stubbornly, capturing her torso with her arms in a gesture of refusal. Even as she did, she mourned the loss she would experience when she could no longer feel his essence close to her.
“I’m not going anywhere.” He answered her silent lament. “And I want you to open your eyes and look at the truth.”
She felt hot tears. “No! I’ve seen it! It’s ugly! It’s not worth looking at! Why should I trust you when I’ve seen the truth for myself?”
“You haven’t.” There was a smile in his words. She wanted to see that smile. More than anything she’d ever wanted. But she couldn’t.
“You haven’t seen the truth. And you should trust me because I love you. As you are. As you look in the mirror I will show you.”
It took several moments for his words to reach her heart and melt her unwillingness. But eventually she allowed her eyes to open slightly. She could see a mirror. And a woman in a beautiful white dress. A beautiful woman.
But it wasn’t the woman that made her open her eyes wide in wonder. Not even when she became orientated enough to realize that the woman was none but herself.
She couldn’t take her eyes off of him. She never wanted to, ever again.
Here was truth.
Friday, October 22, 2010
OFF #5 - A Destiny No Coincidence
The forest loomed dark on the horizon that was quickly relenting to the insistence of night.
Famished and nearly spent, the two skidded to a halt and stared at the eerie shadows of trees reaching gnarled fingers toward their prey.
“I don’t want to go in there.” Julienne said, falling to the ground and pulling her arm away from his clutch. Her hands closed over her throat as if the shadow branches were grasping for her.
“I don’t, either.” Nicholas sighed, out of breath, and kneeled beside her. “But we have no choice. He’s right behind us. If we don’t go in there we have no other way of escape.”
“I’m so tired of running!” Julienne cried. She stood and paced, her arms wrapped around her dress. A beautiful crimson ballgown. Highly inefficient in the matter of keeping one warm. Nicholas also stood and put his arms around her.
“You’re cold.”
She scoffed. “Of course I’m cold. I’m also starving and I need to relieve myself. There never seems to be time for such things. The limits of this… this… succession of events we’re made to engage in… to be – It’s too hard! I can’t do it!”
“You must do it.”
They both whirled around at the sound of his voice. He stood, not a stone’s throw away, with his hands behind his back and a serene smile on his face.
Nicholas tried to hold her back, but Julienne had experienced the worst day of her life and was not to be trifled with. He stepped back in fear and respect of the well dressed gentleman standing confidently with his hands hidden behind his back.
“Why must we do it? Why must we listen to you at all? How is it that you came to be the god of this world? Already today I have watched my entire family burn to death in the untimely and orchestrated fire of our family’s estate. I lost my fiancé to a duel that he neither started nor cared to finish. Somehow this Nicholas fellow saved me from certain doom when a runaway horse and cart became separated on the bridge above where I was standing.”
She dared to take a step closer, though the man didn’t flinch, and his smile remained fixed upon his lips.
“Your horse and cart, was it not?”
“It’s all mine, my dear. Just as you are. You will never be the creator of your own destiny, because I’m the one that created you. So you will mourn your family, pick of the pieces of your heart, and gladly allow Nicholas here to put them back together. I can promise you that in the end, you will live happily ever after.”
She seethed at him as he picked a leaf from her hair. “And how can you possibly promise that?”
He smiled. “Because, my dear heart, I am the writer.”
Famished and nearly spent, the two skidded to a halt and stared at the eerie shadows of trees reaching gnarled fingers toward their prey.
“I don’t want to go in there.” Julienne said, falling to the ground and pulling her arm away from his clutch. Her hands closed over her throat as if the shadow branches were grasping for her.
“I don’t, either.” Nicholas sighed, out of breath, and kneeled beside her. “But we have no choice. He’s right behind us. If we don’t go in there we have no other way of escape.”
“I’m so tired of running!” Julienne cried. She stood and paced, her arms wrapped around her dress. A beautiful crimson ballgown. Highly inefficient in the matter of keeping one warm. Nicholas also stood and put his arms around her.
“You’re cold.”
She scoffed. “Of course I’m cold. I’m also starving and I need to relieve myself. There never seems to be time for such things. The limits of this… this… succession of events we’re made to engage in… to be – It’s too hard! I can’t do it!”
“You must do it.”
They both whirled around at the sound of his voice. He stood, not a stone’s throw away, with his hands behind his back and a serene smile on his face.
Nicholas tried to hold her back, but Julienne had experienced the worst day of her life and was not to be trifled with. He stepped back in fear and respect of the well dressed gentleman standing confidently with his hands hidden behind his back.
“Why must we do it? Why must we listen to you at all? How is it that you came to be the god of this world? Already today I have watched my entire family burn to death in the untimely and orchestrated fire of our family’s estate. I lost my fiancé to a duel that he neither started nor cared to finish. Somehow this Nicholas fellow saved me from certain doom when a runaway horse and cart became separated on the bridge above where I was standing.”
She dared to take a step closer, though the man didn’t flinch, and his smile remained fixed upon his lips.
“Your horse and cart, was it not?”
“It’s all mine, my dear. Just as you are. You will never be the creator of your own destiny, because I’m the one that created you. So you will mourn your family, pick of the pieces of your heart, and gladly allow Nicholas here to put them back together. I can promise you that in the end, you will live happily ever after.”
She seethed at him as he picked a leaf from her hair. “And how can you possibly promise that?”
He smiled. “Because, my dear heart, I am the writer.”
Thursday, October 21, 2010
OFF #4 Flash Nonfiction from the Mind of a Writer
She set her fingers to the keyboard. From the back of her brain only recently freed from the confines of pregnancy hormones came scenes of highest adventure, deepest mystery, purest romance…
Screaming baby.
She ran up the stairs, suddenly reminded of the fact that it had been exactly 10 days since she had last exercised. Formally.
Back to the table. Deep breath. Fingers poised on the keyboard. She checked. Left on ASDF. Right on JKL:. Thumbs ready for action on the space bar.
This took her back to high school typing class. Fun times. And for once a subject had really come in handy on a regular basis for her entire adult life. Go figure.
Toddler crying.
Pause. Will she cry again? Will Husband tend to her? She hears his footsteps. He goes into the kitchen instead.
She checks the clock. 10:32 p.m. There’s still time. She can write her fiction and still have it posted by midnight.
Husband goes silent. What is he doing in the kitchen? He better not be making a mess. I just got it cleaned up.
FOCUS!
Rat-a-tat, rat-a-tat… the dog on the chair next to her shakes and barks in his sleep as he chases some imaginary cat.
Time for the story. Where shall I go? Ancient Greece? The Byzantine Empire? Victorian England? Or perhaps deep into the heart of mid-to-late nineteenth century Texas?
What was it about Westerns? It seemed like no matter who you were and no matter what skill level you possessed as a writer, if you wrote a book that was either a Western or an Amish tale, there was some rule that meant you were to be automatically published.
So why had she been told time and time again in her studies as a writer and at various workshops and conferences that you shouldn’t write westerns or Amish books because they’d never get published?
It was a conspiracy.
Enough! Time to write!
Rats. Twenty words over. Twenty-four words over. Time to quit.
Screaming baby.
She ran up the stairs, suddenly reminded of the fact that it had been exactly 10 days since she had last exercised. Formally.
Back to the table. Deep breath. Fingers poised on the keyboard. She checked. Left on ASDF. Right on JKL:. Thumbs ready for action on the space bar.
This took her back to high school typing class. Fun times. And for once a subject had really come in handy on a regular basis for her entire adult life. Go figure.
Toddler crying.
Pause. Will she cry again? Will Husband tend to her? She hears his footsteps. He goes into the kitchen instead.
She checks the clock. 10:32 p.m. There’s still time. She can write her fiction and still have it posted by midnight.
Husband goes silent. What is he doing in the kitchen? He better not be making a mess. I just got it cleaned up.
FOCUS!
Rat-a-tat, rat-a-tat… the dog on the chair next to her shakes and barks in his sleep as he chases some imaginary cat.
Time for the story. Where shall I go? Ancient Greece? The Byzantine Empire? Victorian England? Or perhaps deep into the heart of mid-to-late nineteenth century Texas?
What was it about Westerns? It seemed like no matter who you were and no matter what skill level you possessed as a writer, if you wrote a book that was either a Western or an Amish tale, there was some rule that meant you were to be automatically published.
So why had she been told time and time again in her studies as a writer and at various workshops and conferences that you shouldn’t write westerns or Amish books because they’d never get published?
It was a conspiracy.
Enough! Time to write!
Rats. Twenty words over. Twenty-four words over. Time to quit.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
OFF #3 - The Moment After Her Death
Tap. Tap. Tap. Tap.
Her fingernail drumming on the side of the earthen wall sounded like the rain that fell outside the window.
The barred window.
The heavy chains of iron that encased her wrists, now swollen and irritated by the constant rubbing of the metal against her sensitive skin, served as a reminder. A reminder that life would never be the same. A reminder that she had lost everything. Her children were the hardest to lose. To know that she would never lay eyes on their precious faces again felt like a knife through her heart.
When the flames leaped up around her tomorrow morning, consuming her flesh until her spirit could no longer reside within it, she knew it would hurt less than losing her babies had wounded her.
She tried to imagine what death might be like. She had heard her entire life that death was punishment for sin. So certainly it could not be pleasant. Even if she had not committed the crimes she was dying for, she had sinned in other ways. As hard as she had always tried to be good, there were those illusive thoughts and actions that were constantly besting her in her struggle to be perfect.
She could not fathom how she had ended up in this dank cell spending her final night awake and alone. One minute she had resisted the advances of a man not her husband, and the next moment she was being dragged before the council and accused of witchcraft. The townspeople, already out of their minds, controlled by the obsession with eradicating the evil, had been easily convinced of her guilt.
No matter that there was no proof. No matter that her husband had piteously pleaded for her life. No matter that she had three small children she was responsible to care for.
She would die. For an offense she would not have thought of committing on her worst day.
And she did not know where the moment after her death might find her.
Her fingernail drumming on the side of the earthen wall sounded like the rain that fell outside the window.
The barred window.
The heavy chains of iron that encased her wrists, now swollen and irritated by the constant rubbing of the metal against her sensitive skin, served as a reminder. A reminder that life would never be the same. A reminder that she had lost everything. Her children were the hardest to lose. To know that she would never lay eyes on their precious faces again felt like a knife through her heart.
When the flames leaped up around her tomorrow morning, consuming her flesh until her spirit could no longer reside within it, she knew it would hurt less than losing her babies had wounded her.
She tried to imagine what death might be like. She had heard her entire life that death was punishment for sin. So certainly it could not be pleasant. Even if she had not committed the crimes she was dying for, she had sinned in other ways. As hard as she had always tried to be good, there were those illusive thoughts and actions that were constantly besting her in her struggle to be perfect.
She could not fathom how she had ended up in this dank cell spending her final night awake and alone. One minute she had resisted the advances of a man not her husband, and the next moment she was being dragged before the council and accused of witchcraft. The townspeople, already out of their minds, controlled by the obsession with eradicating the evil, had been easily convinced of her guilt.
No matter that there was no proof. No matter that her husband had piteously pleaded for her life. No matter that she had three small children she was responsible to care for.
She would die. For an offense she would not have thought of committing on her worst day.
And she did not know where the moment after her death might find her.
OFF with you.
I know, I know, I know, I know, I know.
I know.
I said I would write every day. It's been a few more than that.
I'M SORRY.
I had a daughter who was sick. I was sick. Laundry and dishes and housework piled up. My son decided that since he is now cutting teeth he is excused from being a happy, content baby who sleeps all night.
Life got hard. But I've been thinking about all the blog posts I didn't write. I suppose that's something.
I have a really good post about essential oil uses that will be forthcoming. It's my new favorite hobby. But before that I've decided to join the movement called "October Flash Fiction," orchestrated by fellow blogger Jared in order to get us all writing and reading. I know this is a little unbelievable, but this idea was pretty much exactly what I was thinking about a few posts ago when I said I had a dare for you, then I decided not to try it. Well, with the strength of my fellow bloggers, I invite you to join the craze, a little late like me.
I had strep.
So, if you have a blog and would like to try your hand at flash fiction, here are the details. Add your address as a comment on Jared's blog and finish out the week with us. If you don't have a blog or flash fiction (simply just fiction that is under 300 words) isn't appropriate for your blog, you can add it to mine. Just let me know and I'll post it as long as it is reasonably non-evil.
Here's the info: http://thefallingaction.blogspot.com/
Again I apologize that I have not figured out how to make my links clickable. Someday I will figure that out.
So I look forward to hearing from you. Don't be afraid. Just write. With 300 words, you don't have to have a plot or a setting or even much of a character. Just write something down.
Only five days to go.
I know.
I said I would write every day. It's been a few more than that.
I'M SORRY.
I had a daughter who was sick. I was sick. Laundry and dishes and housework piled up. My son decided that since he is now cutting teeth he is excused from being a happy, content baby who sleeps all night.
Life got hard. But I've been thinking about all the blog posts I didn't write. I suppose that's something.
I have a really good post about essential oil uses that will be forthcoming. It's my new favorite hobby. But before that I've decided to join the movement called "October Flash Fiction," orchestrated by fellow blogger Jared in order to get us all writing and reading. I know this is a little unbelievable, but this idea was pretty much exactly what I was thinking about a few posts ago when I said I had a dare for you, then I decided not to try it. Well, with the strength of my fellow bloggers, I invite you to join the craze, a little late like me.
I had strep.
So, if you have a blog and would like to try your hand at flash fiction, here are the details. Add your address as a comment on Jared's blog and finish out the week with us. If you don't have a blog or flash fiction (simply just fiction that is under 300 words) isn't appropriate for your blog, you can add it to mine. Just let me know and I'll post it as long as it is reasonably non-evil.
Here's the info: http://thefallingaction.blogspot.com/
Again I apologize that I have not figured out how to make my links clickable. Someday I will figure that out.
So I look forward to hearing from you. Don't be afraid. Just write. With 300 words, you don't have to have a plot or a setting or even much of a character. Just write something down.
Only five days to go.
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Saturday, October 9, 2010
Garden Improvement Project
I may have spent $30 and given a whole day of my life away to feed the squirrels.
It wouldn't be the first time.
I've never been one to attempt to hide the fact that I do not have much of a green thumb. Our neighbors on all sides have beautiful lawns and shrubbery and flowerbeds. Our next door neighbors have a vegetable garden that should be featured on HGTV. He likes to come over and watch me working in my pitiful little garden. And tell me what I'm doing wrong. Maybe one of these days I'll take his advice and things will turn around for me.
I have officially taken the standpoint that it is because all of these said people are retired and have no children living at home. They have the time necessary to make a yard look nice. I have no time, and four children to make it look even worse than it already does.
But every spring I look around at all the beautiful little crocuses peeking up through the dirt and the tulips and daffodils and I get really, really jealous. I want pretty flowers in my yard in the spring too. So I can try in vain to protect them from toddlers and remote-controlled vehicles and such. Because that sounds like so much fun!
Anyway, so I went to Lowe's and made my selections. I came home with around 60-80 bulbs to hide away beneath the soil until spring rolls around. I tried to forget what happened every other time I so lovingly placed these precious little seeds of life into the ground with high hopes for winter's end.
Those stupid squirrels. Rats. I hate them. I hate them with such a vengeance that I don't mind using the word I constantly tell my children not to say. (I think we can see why they constantly say it...)
They dig up my flowers, eat the bulbs as if it were a rat buffet, and then go on their merry little annoying way.
I did my homework, and I had a couple weapons in my arsenal this time. I'm hoping maybe one of them will convince the little varmints to keep their creepy little paws off. I doused all my bulbs in baking soda, because apparently this inhibits the squirrels ability to smell them. Then I put a thick layer of cayenne pepper over the top. Surely that will deter them. I wouldn't want to dig in dirt covered in cayenne pepper.
Hopefully they won't either.
It's ten and my children are quiet. The house is clean. I have nothing to do for the rest of my wakefulness tonight but write. So I'm signing off to go work on my book.
Goodnight!
It wouldn't be the first time.
I've never been one to attempt to hide the fact that I do not have much of a green thumb. Our neighbors on all sides have beautiful lawns and shrubbery and flowerbeds. Our next door neighbors have a vegetable garden that should be featured on HGTV. He likes to come over and watch me working in my pitiful little garden. And tell me what I'm doing wrong. Maybe one of these days I'll take his advice and things will turn around for me.
I have officially taken the standpoint that it is because all of these said people are retired and have no children living at home. They have the time necessary to make a yard look nice. I have no time, and four children to make it look even worse than it already does.
But every spring I look around at all the beautiful little crocuses peeking up through the dirt and the tulips and daffodils and I get really, really jealous. I want pretty flowers in my yard in the spring too. So I can try in vain to protect them from toddlers and remote-controlled vehicles and such. Because that sounds like so much fun!
Anyway, so I went to Lowe's and made my selections. I came home with around 60-80 bulbs to hide away beneath the soil until spring rolls around. I tried to forget what happened every other time I so lovingly placed these precious little seeds of life into the ground with high hopes for winter's end.
Those stupid squirrels. Rats. I hate them. I hate them with such a vengeance that I don't mind using the word I constantly tell my children not to say. (I think we can see why they constantly say it...)
They dig up my flowers, eat the bulbs as if it were a rat buffet, and then go on their merry little annoying way.
I did my homework, and I had a couple weapons in my arsenal this time. I'm hoping maybe one of them will convince the little varmints to keep their creepy little paws off. I doused all my bulbs in baking soda, because apparently this inhibits the squirrels ability to smell them. Then I put a thick layer of cayenne pepper over the top. Surely that will deter them. I wouldn't want to dig in dirt covered in cayenne pepper.
Hopefully they won't either.
It's ten and my children are quiet. The house is clean. I have nothing to do for the rest of my wakefulness tonight but write. So I'm signing off to go work on my book.
Goodnight!
Thursday, October 7, 2010
Look at Me Writing My Novel
I was writing my novel. Until I realized I had no idea what a "drill press operator" at a train station in 1940 would have done and so I had to head online to do a yahoo search. And what catches my eye on the news but this.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20101007/ap_on_re/us_rel_southern_baptists_yoga
I had a mixed reaction when I read this article. My first was probably a reverting to my childhood in Christian school where I continually heard about all the sins I was unknowingly offending God over that He was going to remember and hold against me. The second thought was more welcome. A God who would become like me and die for me and conquer death on top of it JUST SO he could be my Savior and friend - does not care if I wear yoga pants and breathe deeply. In fact, in those rare, quiet moments of meditation it's Jesus that comes to mind, so I'm pretty sure He's cool with it.
If you honestly can't do yoga without worshipping idols or chanting Buddha's name - well then maybe you should stay away from it. I've done yoga or yoga-inspired exercise before, and never once was I ever encouraged to renounce Christ and follow Satan.
Okay. I'm going back to writing my story now. Feel free to comment, whether your response is "He's right - we all must repent of our yoga-practicing!" or "Good grief, do you think you're overreacting to this a little bit, Blogger?" or "Amen, sister, preach it!"
I prefer the last one, just so you know.
I think there's going to be quite a few saints in glory looking down over this world after they've made their exit scratching their heads and marveling that Christianity has actually gone on fine without them. If Jesus doesn't return first, that is.
And no discussing what I meant by "looking down over this world" either.
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20101007/ap_on_re/us_rel_southern_baptists_yoga
I had a mixed reaction when I read this article. My first was probably a reverting to my childhood in Christian school where I continually heard about all the sins I was unknowingly offending God over that He was going to remember and hold against me. The second thought was more welcome. A God who would become like me and die for me and conquer death on top of it JUST SO he could be my Savior and friend - does not care if I wear yoga pants and breathe deeply. In fact, in those rare, quiet moments of meditation it's Jesus that comes to mind, so I'm pretty sure He's cool with it.
If you honestly can't do yoga without worshipping idols or chanting Buddha's name - well then maybe you should stay away from it. I've done yoga or yoga-inspired exercise before, and never once was I ever encouraged to renounce Christ and follow Satan.
Okay. I'm going back to writing my story now. Feel free to comment, whether your response is "He's right - we all must repent of our yoga-practicing!" or "Good grief, do you think you're overreacting to this a little bit, Blogger?" or "Amen, sister, preach it!"
I prefer the last one, just so you know.
I think there's going to be quite a few saints in glory looking down over this world after they've made their exit scratching their heads and marveling that Christianity has actually gone on fine without them. If Jesus doesn't return first, that is.
And no discussing what I meant by "looking down over this world" either.
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Pumping it Up
I had a revolutionary idea this week. Perhaps you might think it was just an excuse to escape exercise but I really think it worked out well.
I took my recent idea for an internet "fast" and applied it to exercise. I didn't exercise all last week. And you would not believe the amount of "when I get the time" jobs I was able to complete. Well, maybe you would believe it. But still. I was astounded.
You are asking me to justify abstaining from exercise as a healthy and acceptable choice? For one thing, it gave me a much needed break from something I feel compelled to do every day but I really don't enjoy very much. I was getting to the point where it was just overwhelming and that is what led to this, but now that I've had a few days reprieve, I feel like I can start doing it again.
I'm thinking of doing this every 7th week. If you think that's weird feel free to tell me so. But I'm pretty sure I'll do it anyway.
Also - a quick herb update. I have been reading - I'm afraid I'm going to have to take back all the nasty things I suggested about nonfiction - and I'm finding that I really enjoy learning about herbal remedies. And I don't want to go into details out of respect for the person that required it but there was a certain herbal remedy that pretty much changed life in our house. Wonderfully effective. No side effects.
I've also done some reading about homeopathy. (Before this I thought that homeopathy was just a general term for anything not considered part of modern medicine.) Actually, homeopathy is a very specific idea that everything can be cured by plants or other natural substances that cause the same symptoms as the disease when they are given to healthy people. I like the philosophy, and I think it could have some value. What concerns me is that it seems like you must be "all in." This may just be my perspective as someone who is just learning the basics, because it is true that the book I was reading said over and over again that these remedies may be used alongside other medicines or procedures and only strengthen the value of other methods. I buy that. But I don't know if I buy that every person can be lumped into the few categories that they posed. I could see how I might fit into 2 or 3 of them.
All this to say is that I think so far I'm finding myself to be very interested in naturopathy but not so much homeopathy. If you can find just cause for me to revisit this conclusion I invite your (courteous) replies.
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
At Least I Try
Why is it that pictures other people take of me usually make me want to do a combination of weeping and throwing up, but pictures I take of myself I can sometimes stand?
And also, why is it that when you put the camera above you and shoot down you look skinnier?
That must be why MacGyver thinks I'm good looking. (At first I had "hot" but then I thought of all the people who might read this and decided to tone it down.)
Anyway, this has absolutely nothing to do with my topic. We need a new picture.
That's more like it. And I'll say it again - this is why no one should EVER buy bean bag chairs.
Something occurred to me today. I was throwing out of my closet to bag all the dusty clothes in the back that haven't fit since Toddler came on the scene... (Yes, I realize that sentence was poorly constructed. And I realize I am a writer and that if I want to get myself an agent at some point I really should try harder to be grammatically pleasing to the mind, but I'm going to pull the old "Homeschooling mother of 4 under 7" and beg your pardon.) Anyway, I was pulling out everything that I laugh when I consider trying on, and I found my stash of present size fall/winter clothes. A week ago I was perusing my selection and found my cool weather options strangely lacking, which of course necessitated a trip to the mall.
Now, you are asking how I managed to lose clothes I wore not 6 months ago, but it's been a little longer. I haven't seen most of these clothes for a good two years due to pregnancy and all of it's accompaniments. So I guess I can be allowed a little credit, but still - I would save a lot of money if #1 - I wasn't a different size (postpartum, nursing, newly pregnant and really really pregnant) every time I turn around, and #2 - if I remembered where I put the present category's stash.
I like to say I'm organized, but the truth is I am not. I do spend a lot of time organizing, but everything seems to automatically revert to unorganized.
I am an unorganized person who would really really really love to be organized.
Any tips would be helpful. Not just for the clothes but for any facet of homemaking and homeschooling. And keeping things organized rather than just having to reorganize, if such a thing is even feasible.
Thank you and good night.
Sunday, September 26, 2010
Dare You, Part 2
I realize it's not tomorrow. Upon my word, this is the first time I've sat down to my computer since my last entry.
My weekend consisted mostly of attending a women's retreat with about 50 of the women from my church. If you are a woman and you haven't recently attended a church retreat with other female-type people, you really must. You will hear shocking things about your friends at 3 in the morning and say things about yourself at 4 in the morning that you will later wish to disclaim, but all in all you will not be sorry you went.
I also must say that something very encouraging happened at said retreat. One of the women in our church who is a physician in a family practice gave a short workshop on women's health. She reminded us of routine tests we need or don't need to worry about, she gave us a few tips about some other issues related to women, but it was her final note that made my heart sing. She said that she has been doing some of her own studying and strongly suggests that we get two things out of our kitchens. Trans fat and High Fructose Corn Sugar. She also said it would benefit us to be more active. Here here to acknowledging the problem AND the answer.
This is the first time I have ever heard a doctor say anything like this. I know that there are some that do, but it was a relief to me to hear it in person.
That's going to cost me another heated debate, I'm sure, but I had to say it because I was so pleased.
Now on to the second part of the dare. There isn't one. I had a really good one, but judging by my lack of time, the measly 26 pages of my book that are already greatly in need of revision, and the extreme business of most of you, I just don't think it would work right now. So you're all off the hook.
With that I'll say goodnight.
My weekend consisted mostly of attending a women's retreat with about 50 of the women from my church. If you are a woman and you haven't recently attended a church retreat with other female-type people, you really must. You will hear shocking things about your friends at 3 in the morning and say things about yourself at 4 in the morning that you will later wish to disclaim, but all in all you will not be sorry you went.
I also must say that something very encouraging happened at said retreat. One of the women in our church who is a physician in a family practice gave a short workshop on women's health. She reminded us of routine tests we need or don't need to worry about, she gave us a few tips about some other issues related to women, but it was her final note that made my heart sing. She said that she has been doing some of her own studying and strongly suggests that we get two things out of our kitchens. Trans fat and High Fructose Corn Sugar. She also said it would benefit us to be more active. Here here to acknowledging the problem AND the answer.
This is the first time I have ever heard a doctor say anything like this. I know that there are some that do, but it was a relief to me to hear it in person.
That's going to cost me another heated debate, I'm sure, but I had to say it because I was so pleased.
Now on to the second part of the dare. There isn't one. I had a really good one, but judging by my lack of time, the measly 26 pages of my book that are already greatly in need of revision, and the extreme business of most of you, I just don't think it would work right now. So you're all off the hook.
With that I'll say goodnight.
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Wednesday, September 22, 2010
Dare You
This is my toddler. Hugging a gravestone. Laughing with glee. She comes by her weirdness honestly, at least.
I've been inspired. I was thinking over all the recent weighty discussions (haha, no pun intended...) and trying to think of moving on with something a little easier. If you have no interest in trying something new, you better leave now. Because I've got quite the challenge for you.
The first part. A debate. This is a sort of fun debate, because there is really no wrong answer, it being a simple preference based mostly on personality. (I think??) Simply put, which is better, Fiction or Non-Fiction?
You might name the two camps thus: Fiction is for people who have Attention Deficit Disorder and have to be tricked into thinking. Non-fiction is for people who have absolutely no imagination.
Which position do you subscribe to? Why? Anyone living a double life and catering to both equally?
I shall give my position, since this is my blog and I can say whatever I want. I read 95% fiction. Now, my 5% of nonfiction may actually be a larger quantity than someone else's 100% due to my actual volume of reading, but still, you are far more likely to grab my attention with a story that isn't true, or at least one that's written that way. For example, if you want to teach me about growing a good potato, it's best that you make the potato farmer a beautiful yet misunderstood young woman living in 1734 in Ireland who meets a really strong, yet sensitive and good looking guy who at first spars with her but ultimately falls madly in love with her. You'll do even better by me if they end up getting married and inventing the time machine together and go back in time to save the lost city of Atlantis where they find a colony of aliens who have been living in cognito on planet earth for three hundred years. Now that's a potato book that I will stay up all night to read.
Sorry. Can you tell I love to write fiction? ...Any kind of fiction?
How about you? What floats your boat? What sets your sails? Tell us about it. Tell us why you feel that way. Pretend its the most important debate you'll ever take upon your humble soul. Feel free to be snarky, sarcastic, opinionated and hotheaded, as in the end it's all in good fun and we'll all pretty much keep reading whatever we want to read regardless of what anyone says.
Then the challenge. A little more difficult. I dare you to read whatever it is that you don't usually read. Expand your horizons. For me, this requires that I actually take a look at "How to Sell Your Novel" which has been patiently waiting at the bottom of my library bag for a few weeks. What does it mean for you?
Oh, and in all your snarkiness, make sure you advertise the best book you ever read.
And tomorrow I have an even scarier challenge for you!
And just so you know, spell check doesn't think snarky is a word.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
Updates.
So I've looked some more into medicinal herbs and I'm thinking I'm going to plant a few in my garden next spring. I'm going to try Feverfew, St. John's Wort, Lavender, Peppermint, Chamomile, Sassafras, Yarrow, and maybe a few more. I got the idea in Yorktown, actually - they had a post-Revolutionary farm and in one of the gardens they were growing medicinal herbs all along the edges. I'm excited to try it.
I've discovered as well that the Shred makes my hip and sciatic nerve hurt. So far I'm just pushing through it. I'm hoping it won't get any worse, because my son grabbed the camera a few times on vacation and took some lovely full-body shots of me that made me want to cry.
At least it was the reminder I needed to make myself get better about actually taking time to eat breakfast and lunch rather than just grab snacks all day until the kids are in bed. I've been making sure I sleep 7-8 hours and drink enough water as well.
Am I the only woman out there that has such an uncooperative body the year after a baby comes? I think it has to do with nursing, at least for me. It's so frustrating to eat right and exercise and still look like I frequent buffets and sit on my duff all day.
But I digress. All I can do is try harder.
How is everyone else doing with their commitments to stay healthy? Time for a weigh-in! (Pardon my pun...) Hit the comment button and let us have it.
Sunday, September 19, 2010
The Art of Medicine
The art of medicine consists in amusing the patient while nature cures the disease. - Voltaire
I can see it, Dr. G. You're already cringing in anticipation of what ridiculousness is about to flow from my mind this evening. It's okay.
I know I have no right to speak of such things, as I never took any higher science classes than high school biology and chemistry. I should be ashamed of myself for what I've been thinking lately. But I've found myself being more and more interested in herbs used for medicinal reasons.
Modern medicine is quite useful, as I've said before and willingly confess once again. I'm entirely grateful that my children will not likely die of fevers or complications of childhood illnesses. I am certainly appreciative in knowing that should some unthinkable accident occur - the amazing talents of surgeons and physical therapists are readily available in a moment's notice. It is a balm to my soul to know that antibiotics are still pretty good at killing bacteria before it kills me.
But I'm not so convinced that every little ache and pain we experience necessitates a trip to the doctor's office. I'm skeptical that the host of medicines we subject our bodies to help any more than they hurt in the long run. The more I go "natural" the more I realize how out of tune with our bodies we really are, and how the choices we make about what goes in affect our health and well being far more than anyone is willing to let on.
So that's why I've found myself wondering more and more about the "medicines" that people have been using for thousands of years. It's never been enough for me to hear an authority on any subject say something is so and accept it without further thought. I want to know whether it is a true statement or partially true or false, based on any myriad of reasons including what someone stands to gain by his claims. That's why I've decided to take our list of complaints in this household and do a little research and test a few claims.
So I look forward to getting back to you on this subject. And as always I invite you to share your own opinion, experiences or beliefs on the topic.
Goodnight!
Friday, September 17, 2010
Book Learning and Such
Homeschoolers are funny.
No, not funny as in really weird, detached from reality, socially awkward. Just funny.
Let me apologize for my absence. I had every intention of writing while we were vacationing in Williamsburg this past week. I was so tired at the end of every day I didn't touch the computer.
Anyway, I was telling you about funny homeschoolers. We went to Williamsburg this past week while they were having their home education week. There were about twenty homeschoolers in one of our tours. There was no listless staring off into space with arms folded across chests here. Children which ranged in age from kindergartners to high schoolers listened with rapt attention, arms shooting up to answer or ask questions on a regular basis. I think this was a little disconcerting to the guide, who was probably used to glazed over silence. But as she talked next to a field of sheep, one of the sheep got a little curious and decided to come over and investigate. No kidding - every single one of those kids did the exact same thing. A mass migration suddenly moved from the disconcerted tour guide to the sheep in one quick moment. She seemed a little perturbed - probably being used to classes of kids who are expected to stand and listen and not get out of line. But what she didn't realize is that they weren't being disrespectful at all - they were just really excited about learning. And they are used to learning in this way - whatever comes across their path they seize upon and understand it.
All that to say that I think homeschooling is a great idea. That must be why I do it. But it wasn't why I did it at first. When I started our homeschooling journey three years ago, it was because I didn't feel I had any other options. The private school our church housed had closed. Public school scared me witless, having never darkened their halls in all my educational career. I felt a duty to see to it that they learned the correct things, and had an education based on God's Word.
Overwhelmed, I jumped in. And I made mistakes and changed my mind over this way or that method and there were a lot of days I barely got anything done besides, but somewhere between preschool and second grade, I fell in love with teaching my children.
And the reasons I did it in the first place deepened. I realized that it wasn't so much sheltering them from ideas but exposing them to many ideas, holding the candle of the Bible to every one and seeing what held water and what blew smoke. I began to see all the time I would have missed if they were gone every day for so many hours. It occur ed to me that I was learning right along with them, and that the world was starting to take on a different shape in my own mind as well.
I've watched Eldest and now Secondborn enjoy the art of learning. There are no preconceived notions brought on by traditions or expectations of teachers and other classmates. They've never heard it isn't cool to enjoy learning new things. No one ever told them they have to be quiet, so they ask questions freely. They don't have to hurry to catch up or slow to the pace of thirty other kids their own age, so they are never bored or self-conscious.
I was always worried that they would become social outcasts because of a lack of exposure to other children. It has been the complete opposite. They aren't afraid of other kids, so they befriend others easily. They are also very comfortable around adults without that kids vs. adults mentality, so they have many strong relationships with family, friends and neighbors. To be quite honest, I just don't have any reservations about their social interactions anymore.
Homeschooling is a big commitment. I fully know that it takes a lot of time that some people just don't have no matter how much they'd like to. I would never dare to suggest that because I homeschool my kids, I am at liberty to judge others who don't. I'm only sharing my story, in case there might be that reader who feels the call to begin this journey and lacks only the courage.
Don't be afraid!
Homeschooling saves money. Homeschoolers learn to work hard, teach themselves, respect others and excel in the areas they are gifted. They learn to teach younger children, follow their interests and apply knowledge on a daily basis. They grow up relatively free from bullying, peer pressure and distrust of adults.
What are your thoughts? Disagree? Want a chance to voice your opinion about why you have chosen public or private school? Have at it!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
There are Ghosts About
I'm back. It felt more like a few hours than seven whole days, but as promised I have returned to the online world.
I have a story. It's weird. It's a little creepy. It's a little cool. If you think you already heard it, think again. I haven't told anyone the end of the story. Not even MacGyver. So read on. After you look at my really weird picture from the farmhouse at Slate Run Metropark. I have stared at this picture a lot and never been able to explain the big white vortex in the middle. It wasn't there when I took the picture. Someone ruin all my fun and tell me that it's a completely normal camera malfunction or a trick of light. Go ahead.
Anyway, my weird story. A little background. You wouldn't expect a Dominion home slapped together in 1987 would really have that much character that it could boast a weird happening or two. But our run-of-the-mill suburban home has some sort of secret that I have not even begun to figure out in the ten years I have been here.
I'm not going to go into past experiences, because it's 12:15 a.m. and the house is completely quiet and I won't be able to sleep if I get myself all creeped out. I'll save the stories for sometime when it is the blazing hot middle of the day and there are 17,000 children running about.
But anyway, my story from last week during my internet-fast. I went upstairs one night to get ready for bed. I came into my room and immediately noticed that my alarm was set.
This was odd because I did not set my alarm. The kids had not been upstairs since the last time I had been and I didn't think they had done it. MacGyver hadn't touched it, he said. I shrugged and turned it off, being careful to note that the switch had been completely turned to the off position because I did not care to be woken up at 7:15 am if it was not necessary. I went to the bathroom. I came back about 30 seconds later.
IT WAS BACK ON.
MacGyver had been on the other side of the room the entire time. Unless he did it by telepathy, it would have been impossible. The only other person in the room was Baby J, and he doesn't quite have the skills to have pulled that off, unless he's REALLY holding out on us.
So I checked the position of the switch to see if I had just somehow not pulled it forward enough, but it was completely locked in the on position once again.
NOW the story I didn't tell anyone else. The night before, I had a really bad night. The kids were completely out of control and MacGyver was annoying the socks off of me, not that I was wearing any. I specifically remember one point in the evening just staring heavenward and sighing. "I need to know you love me, Lord. I need to know someone loves me."
I know, a fairly infantile thing to say. I got past it and went about my business for the next day until the weird occurrence with the alarm clock. Later that night, as I was telling my sister about it, she conveyed what my brother-in-law said when she told him.
"Leave it on."
I laughed, but then I started to think about it. What if there were a reason my alarm clock had been turned on not once, but twice? Maybe there was something I needed to be up for at 7:15 a.m.
So I turned it back on.
At 7:15 a.m., these were the words I heard.
"I love you. I want you to know. I love you - I'll never let you go."
It was the song "By Your Side" by Tenth Avenue North. And every time I hear it now I smile.
But just because this particular experience can probably be attributed to the divine, we still have a really weird house.
Glad to be back!
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